Guest Standers Testimony:
About 3 years ago my marriage started unraveling. My husband took off his wedding ring, said he wanted a divorce, and said he no longer was in love with me. I was in complete and utter shock. For the next 6 months my marriage continued to unravel, distance grew more and more as I tried to cling to my husband and he tried to escape. He ended up packing his bag one day and moved out.
I felt helpless, lost, and alone. My 10 year marriage was gone, died… I then turned to God. I first pleaded, begged, and cried out to God. I called prayer lines at least 3 times a day. I didn’t want my marriage to end. Things continued to get worse. But I started realizing the things I did wrong.
I started encountering God like never before. I prayed for my husband daily, the situation, my children. My relationship with Jesus became stronger than ever before.
My mom told me about a woman who was told she had months to live. She started praying by first asking God to heal her, then praising him like she was already healed. God healed her. So I decided to pray differently. I asked God to restore my marriage, then I started thanking him daily for restoring my marriage. I then wrote my future marriage restoration testimony to Jesus and gave it to him.
Things started to get worse…. Then one day I told God, I’m done, if you want this, simply intervene, I trust you. I finally actually let go and trusted God with whatever was going to happen. My children came to me upset so I told them I don’t know what the future holds, I love your dad but I just don’t know what’s going to happen. I said all we can do is pray. My children prayed for his return. I cried that night and asked God to please show them your love and hear their cry.
The next morning my husband came to visit the kids like always. I was sitting outside and the first thing he said was. I’m moving back home.
We were completely divided when he returned but I prayed daily. A year passed and slowly I saw his heart softening. I prayed daily and continued to trust God. I would struggle from time to time. But then God would give me the strength to continue. I fell more and more in love with Jesus.
One prayer I prayed was for God to give me eyes to see my husband as He sees him. I also studied love in Corinthians and decided that I would love my husband like that. I loved when I wasn’t being loved back….
1 Corinthians 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
He still did not wear his ring nor kiss me nor tell me he loves me…. One day he pulled his ring out of the bottom of the drawer and let my child play with it. I felt like my heart was crushed. I wanted to yell, tell him what was on my mind, cry…. But I didn’t. The next time my husband was out of the house I took his ring and told God everything that was hurting me. I asked God to give me a sign that he was still restoring my marriage by returning the ring to his finger. The next day I grabbed the ring again but this time I praised God believing that my prayer was answered.
The next day I was too busy and didn’t notice that the ring was missing from the shelf. My husband came home in the evening and I noticed he was wearing the ring. Not only that but each of my children came up to me and whispered in my ear, “look what dad is wearing.” Their eyes were full of joy.
I give God all the glory. As I still pray daily believing that one day my marriage will be fully restored and I will share my full testimony of how God changed me, a broken, nagging, insecure woman to a woman who trusts God and tries daily to be the woman God has called me to be. I just want to share my testimony to date to encourage others standing. And to glorify God for hearing our prayers. His timing may not be when we want but trust that He has perfect timing.
Ezekiel 36:26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
I’m praying and interceding for others standing.