After divorce of 2 years where we both believed we wanted nothing to do with each other and had already moved on with our lives, the Lord miraculously brought us back together, using 2 great men in my life Pastor Andre & Christine Wilman and Apostle Theo Wolmanrans. I thank them for being so hard on me even when I was upset and did not agree with their counsel because I wanted what I wanted.
I almost left and disassociated with CFC, I was hurt, offended and felt alone while running a church. Well, I realized later that where I was was actually the GRACE of God. I believe they were led by the Lord to be that hard on me and I’m happy they did. I went on to trust God to change their hearts and began praying and studying a lot about my divorce situation. The Lord began dealing with me and yes He did change a heart but it was not theirs but mine.
All the time I believed my wife was the reason we divorced because of how she dealt with things when upset but the Lord showed me in many ways how the divorce was actually my fault, how I was the one who was the main contributor to our divorce.
THIS WAS VERY HARD TO ACCEPT AS A PASTOR.
I was too focused on the ministry as the church had just started, I neglected my wife and made her feel 2nd best. I put so much pressure on her to be the perfect ‘Pastors Wife’. All that mattered was me me me and my calling. I created a very angry wife and actually misrepresented God and ministry to my wife(just like Moses misrepresented God to the Israelites) she started resenting both God and the church. That was wrong and actually evil. So I accepted my wrong, repented and began to trust God to bring my wife back and started pursuing her. She rejected me for 2 months but with prayer and fasting and consistent confessions taught by my Father Apostle Theo, the Lord brought her back.
Yesterday we renewed our vows and got RE-MARRIED
The Lord taught me and still is teaching me ‘Selflessness in Marriage’. My love for my wife was selfish, I was full of myself, my ministry and what I wanted. Neglected my 1st ministry which was my marriage. Never again.
I know many will be shocked by this as I decided not to talk about it and walk this walk alone with what I believed God wanted me to do. I didn’t even tell my spiritual authorities or even my parents until I was back with my wife. This was only between 3 people, God, me and my wife.
-Abi Ranyane
